18th October

Today's date is my so-called-schooldays-bestfriend's birthday . I can say we were close during our school days but now I find myself rethinking are we still bestfriend . Cause we have been lost contact since ... I can't remember .

I don't have the reason why it turns out that way . 

Sometimes I have a hunch that, that person may have been forgotten me . I mean, how close we were years ago .

But whatever it is, I have all the best wishes on your 20th birthday . 

May all your dream comes true and be able to help people as much as you can . Be a good muslim and achieve greatest success- The Jannah ! Ameen .

Notes : 

Although you may not read this but still I wanna wish you Happy Birthday and welcome to twenties :D . hehe

(But if you do,  I'm pretty sure you know I write this for you .)

Assalamualaikum .

hello there . how you guys doing ? I'm doing really fine cause i'm in the midst of my semester break right now . keja makan ja gais . haha

so yes, basically i'm done with my first year degree in Bachelor in Accounting (hons.) . 

macam tak percaya dah setahun aku belajar accounting . after all the hardships yang aku kena hadap sebab nak tukar kos, tukar universiti, tukar sponsor, tukar environment etc etc. well, aku rela hadap semua tu dari dibelenggu benda yang memang aku tak nak buat . i think i should make a specific post on how i went through all those things . but next time lah . 

dalam entry ni aku nak cerita my ups and downs as an accounting student so far . but my biggest problem is i dont know how to start . haha . no worry, it wont be long .

well, aku ni science stream student . dari sekolah menengah sampai masuk foundation aku belajar science . aku kenal G.N.Lewis, Robert Kirchhoff, Gregor Mendel etc etc. tapi bila masuk accounting, aku kenal errr.. aku tak ingat pon nama major contributors dalam bidang accounting . haha . tapi yang aku pasti aku semakin kenal DUIT . hahaha . 

bagi aku bidang science dan bidang business ni sangat ketara perbezaanya . both courses have their own attractions and excitements . i love them both . betul !

Semester 1 :

so, masuk je business school, i have to adapt with some business jargon that sound quite unfamiliar . tapi awal-awal lagi aku dah prepare otak aku supaya be prepared untuk hadam segala benda tu . and alhamdulillah, otak aku was doing quite well on my first semester . aku bersyukur sangat . Allah dan orang sekeliling banyak bantu aku . 

aku pernah cakap kat mama "senang ja accounting ni ma" pastu mama cakap "alhamdulillah la kalau awin rasa senang tapi awin baru sem satu . more to come . jangan rasa senang sangat you still have to struggle and do your best ."

Special semester :

Special semester ni wajib ambil . lebih kurang macam short semester la . 2 subjects ja . business communication and marketing and human resource . interesting subjects . tapi mereput jugak la kat U sebab dua subjek . kelas sehari 2 jam ja . dan result pon alhamdulillah sama macam semester 1 .

Semester 2 :

kemudian masuk lah ke semester 2 . masuk semester 2 baru aku faham apa yang mama cuba sampaikan dulu . subjects were getting tougher especially Law and Cost Accounting  (bagi aku la) . pastu aku terfikir pulak semester 2 first year dah rasa subjek tough how about the upcoming semesters ? jadi lepas muhasabah, aku rasa insaf la sikit . untuk semester-semester depan aku tak nak memain dah macam semester 2 . 

esok (13 oktober) result semester 2 will be announced . nak kata aku nervous tak pon cumanya aku harap result aku tak mengecewakan mama . amin aminnn . abah kata kalau dapat 4 flat dapat hadiah . tapi macam emmmm tak tau nak cakap . tunggu result je lah .

Semester 3 :

untuk semester 3 yang akan datang tak lama lagi, aku harap aku dapat fokus dengan baik . semester 3 ni ada subjek :

Taxation, Finance, Economy, Financial Accounting, Management Accounting and Islamic and Civil Society

susah ke senang ke redah je bak kata abah "no more U-turn" . haha baiklah bah . yang penting sekali niat menuntut ilmu lillahitaala dan amanah sebagai pelajar . in sha Allah . 

bai :)

Hello there . 'ssup ? it has been awhile since the last time i drop by . well, i am not going to list down the excuses and reasons on why i am 'missing' cause i know no one care . but if i do, you'll read lame excuses . haha . so may i know, is there anyone who miss me ? patiently waiting for my comeback ? hahaha joking . well i know no one does sobs sobs . but nevermind i miss u anyway . hehe :)

i dont have anything to talk about as this post is a random post . just to show that i still care of my blog . haha . you may skip this post as surely it does not give you any benefits . seriously . haha . so say no more cause i am gonna stop here . haha . sorry for the 'lame'ness of mine and till we meet again virtually . haha .

please stay healthy and take care whoever you are . toodles .

Well, it is hard to be steadfast on the road to change for the better person . that is a fact, no doubt . i have been through a saying that goes something like this "difficult things are not impossible ." this saying makes me ponder . 

many of us refuse or procrastinate to change for the better just because of we are afraid to face people like family, friends, colleagues and most of all is our own self . why ? we don't want to face the complexity and the difficulties that come along with our changing process . you know, those are also parts of changing as well . brace yourself cause difficult things are not impossible .

The intention to change for the better comes from Allah . Allah wants you to change so don't hesitate to take an action to start changing . don't think too much, just do it . if Allah brings you to it, He is the one who gonna bring you through it . He will show you the way . 

Yes, we all have our own painful dark pasts and stupid mistakes that might be keep on haunting us, that will make us down or make us stop changing . we all have them . how you cope with them is the matter . either those painful pasts can be a catalyst to transform you to become the better version of yourself or vice verse .

Turn back to Allah, move on by repenting sincerely to Allah .  control ourselves as much as we can . it takes time . do it slowly and be consistent . yes, be consistent . Allah don't ask us to change drastically, you may go slowly but He loves who can be consistent . Allah wants ease for us not difficulty . 

You are on a noble path yet with difficult journey dear . gather your strength and keep on walking . If Allah already provided us an open door, then who are we to shut it ? 

I pray for you my dear friend . May Allah grants us strength and surrounded with positive vibes to stand back up when we fall . Ameen .