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THE DIFFERENCES BETWEEN PREVIOUS AND FUTURE}
Friday, November 11, 2011 | 9:04 AM | 3Comment

Terlalu banyak hal yang membebankan fikiran awin sekarang ni . Terlalu berat ! doa sentiasa dipanjatkan agar segala yang memberati fikiran segera dapat diselesaikan . honestly, i REALLY need someone to lend me their shoulder to cry on and to share those problems but it seems they're also busy handling their life too . nevermind, i tried my best make things back to normal by myself . i'm tough enough to handle those problems that burden me . but sometimes i need someone to give me support and strength to face it . friend, i need u . yeah, i really need you right now .

too many shocking news that happens in my life lately . those news ask me to make changes . i need to change 360 degree in a short time . oh god, i cant do it but i will never stop to keep on changing . i know everything happens for a reason and one of the reason is to remind me that Allah wanna build a strong heart for me . strong heart that can face all HIS trials with perseverance and patience . InsyaAllah~






i think this is the most approptiate time for me to change . my previous life is too dark and way too far from the right path . so, now i wanna change . change to become a better person towards ALLAH and MUHAMMAD RASULULLAH, better daughter towards my MAMA and ABAH, better sister towards my brothers and sisters, better friends towards my friends, better student towards my teachers and BETTER in every single things . yeah, i can do it . no matter how hard it is, i have to make change . even if it had commenced with a great sacrifice . i'm willing to do it . pray for me guys .


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ok, awin SANGAT terkejut bila dengaq statement tu . serius empangan yang menampung air mata ni rasa nak pecah . dengan kudrat dan segumpal semangat yang awin ada awin telah berjaya terima statement tu dengan bibir yang tersenyum walaupun pada zahirnya sahaja . tapi kalau scan dalam hati awin mesti boleh nampak hati ni menangis . sangat-sangat tak sangka boleh jadi macam tu . memang nak menangis sangat-sangat masa tau benda tu, tapi keadaan tak mengizinkan . 

dan tadi, pada tarikh 11.11.11 awin block dia dalam FB dan delete phone number dia . awin gagahi diri untuk mematikan rasa yang hanya akan mengundang dosa yang tumbuh dalam hati awin terhadap dia . perlukan masa untuk merawat sakit dihati dan mmbaiki iman yang kian meruntuh . when the time comes we will become friend again . a true friend without any feeling that can drag us towards destruction . aminnn~~


NOTE-TO-BE-MEMORISED !! ;
  • if u didn't mean it, DON'T ever say it cause maybe i will stupidly believe what are u saying . *like i used to .
  • stop fooling others
  • I HOPE 'YOU' READ THIS .